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What is the root of fantasy?

“What sphinx of cement and aluminum bashed open their skulls and ate up their brains and imagination?”

Moloch! The well-oiled stink of capitalism permeates every crevice of our lives. Some days the MSG headache of mass-produced culture, the cog movements of worldwide exploitation, the carbon-monoxide-smothering of my ignorance chokes me with despair. The real pain and broken lives I could see every day is too much; from-a-distance despair is all I allow myself. My back hurts clenching off my awareness from how hellish we’ve made a world of angels.

Almost as much as it would hurt to close myself off from all the hope. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes that we slow-burn our world and ourselves to every day, there’s another world bursting out in a million different ways. The baby fire bird is still just stumbling around, unfamiliar with the strength in its limbs and the heights its wings were built for. But it’s growing every day– some days, today, I can hear its call.

I could never catalog all the evidence for this new world, but fortunately, I don’t have to.

Howard Zinn wrote the popular account of its history, and it’s just a condensation of what anarchists and others have been telling us for years: our world has never been the just, free, healthy, people’s world we’re told it’s supposed to be, but that has never crushed the spirit of the people who believe it can be.

WorldChanging has collected and published the methods and stories behind building the new world, and that’s just a snapshot of the ever-evolving world-changing knowledge. The UK government did the same thing a few years ago with The Rough Guide to a Better World. Both their messages? That there are a million campfires getting ready to light up the future, and that’s just the beginning.

And recently I found another catalog, this one for the present. CrimethInc. Ex-Worker’s Collective published Recipes for Disaster, a direct-action, fuck proper channels, anarchists’ cookbook manifesto on how to fight, and how to love. I’ve just flipped through it, and it’s rough, the way I imagine any agglomeration has to be from people who are more interested in doing and learning than recording. But it’s worth the gems.

What inspires me most about CrimethInc. is the love they put into their work and get out of it as a natural consequence. They speak of magic and love and joy no more shame-facedly than they talk about sabotage and collectives and mainstream media. The clear, hopeful, wisdom-filled eyes that saw Europe by hitchhiking between squats in Off the Map seem to be a dime-a-pair in their world.

And that’s just what I’ve encountered so far. The internet is of course the baby phoenix’s playground, with a different vision of the future born every minute, and more experiments than I could experience with a hundred lives.

We have so much reason to hope. The quote above is from Howl, praise to the beatniks who gave their generation “the absolute heart of the poem of life butcher out of their own bodies good to eat a thousand years.” We are all crucial parts of all the worlds’ problems and all its dreams. I wish I were strong enough or smart enough to machete my own path out of this dark wood, but at least I have the ability to find others, and together we can make it.

[toys] New LJ Memes

A batch of LJ memes have been circling around Rocky recently. I looked at them and I was, well, underwhelmed. So I decided to make my own (rather, to make a program that can make them). Try them out!

  • The Book Quiz: What somewhat classic literary work are you? Based on lists and pages from Amazon. Slow.
  • The Rocky Quiz: Which member of FBC are you? Based on the public cast/crew profiles.
  • The Fetish Quiz: Which sexual fetish are you? Based on Wikipedia articles. The result is not work-safe (the image comes from a automated “safe-search-off” Google image search).

The questions all come from a Myers-Briggs test (because it’s an easy place to get questions). You can answer as many or few questions as you want to get a result.

These are largely automated systems, so even if the system isn’t buggy (not guaranteed– I didn’t test very long), the results may be counter-intuitive. The quizzes work by comparing word frequencies in Google search results of your answers to word frequencies in the various “result” pages.

Top 20 Books

[Update: I’ve been exploring some wonderful new experiences, and hope to have many more. Life is good and I’m flirting with some new clients for work. My evenings haven’t been as full as sometimes, but that’s okay– an evening at home is hours more to work on projects (drool).]

abangaku‘s Top books post inspired me to write up my own list. Below are the top 20 books of my life at this moment. They’re a mix of influential books from my youth, books that opened my mind, books that titillated my senses, and books I can’t make it through the week without referring back to. Vaguely from the top down:

  1. Robert Heinlein, The Moon is a Harsh Mistress
  2. Robert M. Pirsig, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance: An Inquiry into Values
  3. Rosamund and Benjamin Zander, The Art of Possibility
  4. Scott McCloud, Understanding Comics: The Invisible Art
  5. James Joyce, Ulysses
  6. George Orwell, 1984
  7. Plato, The Symposium
  8. Virginia Wolfe, The Waves
  9. Ram Dass, Be Here Now
  10. Douglas Hofstadter, Godel, Escher, Bach
  11. Elizabeth Wurtzel, Bitch: In Praise of Difficult Women
  12. David Eddings, The Belgariad (series)
  13. Piers Anthony, Incarnations of Immortality (series)
  14. Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being
  15. Arnold Mindell, Sitting in the Fire
  16. Brad Blanton, Radical Honesty: How To Transform Your Life By Telling The Truth
  17. Tom Wolfe, The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test
  18. Robert Rimmer, The Harrad Experiment
  19. Eve Delunas, Survival Games Personalities Play
  20. Donald Palmer, Looking at Philosophy

I could ramble on every one of these, but let it stand that I love each one in a special way, and that my life was vastly amplified by having read them. What’s your top 20 list? I’m always looking for book recommendations, and I’d love to hear what books have made you!!!

I had to leave some excellent books off this list. There were some that a few great ideas but don’t overflow the way these do– Don’t Think of an Elephant, The Tipping Point, What Should I Do with My Life, How Children Fail, Training Trances. Also absent are several books I enjoyed down to their very core, but which have questionable literary worth– The Elementary Particles, Satan: His Psychotherapy and Cure by the Unfortunate Dr. Kassler, J.S.P.S., The Fourth Turning, The Phantom Tollbooth, anything by David Sedaris. I fully expect How to Succeed with Women to make this list, but I’m only a few chapters in and taking it slow.

In the past few weeks I’ve read Slaughterhouse-Five (loved the craft, hated the ethics until I talked it over with a lit grad friend– now like a top 40 book), Waiting for Godot (oh the modernity! a wild ride, but I think it could have ended an act earlier), and Alice in Wonderland (even with Martin Gardner’s notes, I’m reading it two decades too late), and now I’m trading off between Off the Map (wise, inspiring, bewitching; makes me want to leave everything) and A People’s History of the United States (poorly written, sometimes fascinating, and good for the soul).

[wanted]

Yesterday I talked to the “Venture Mentoring” group at MIT about the travelers community website business I’m starting up. They weren’t fantastically helpful, but their consensus was “sounds great– go do it.” So I am.

Departure World (I changed the name for the better url I got) is an extension of my travel blog, with plenty of social networking, review and discussion frameworks, and huge ambitions. I’ve already had friends use parts of it, and there’s more in the works, probably ready for beta testing in another month.

What I need now is a good web graphic designer: someone to create the slick, fun, and stylish face for the guts that I’ve already built. I need a color scheme, images galore, web page templates, and reusable motifs.

This would be a paid contract gig, with the potential for a continued relationship. If you know someone who might fit the job, send them my way!

Saving Time in a Bottle

[Played Frank at Rocky last night– ***so much fun***!!! I’m exhausted! I’ve been practicing so much recently that it feels weird to finally be done. Alex’s party was great, and the grass and the togas and the kissing were unforgettable.]

I want to put together a time capsule– and I want to invite everyone to contribute, and make it a collective time capsule.

Let’s gather together pictures and recordings, letters and anecdotes, mementos and bits of art, newspaper clippings and event announcements, modern artifacts of current trends (a pirate or zombie patch, a sudoko square, an anti-Bush flier, a cellphone cover), some tokens to remember friends and pastimes and dreams, some trinkets that mean too much to throw away but have no place on the mantel. The things to record what it feels like to be ourselves and to live now. We can bury it and all return to it in 20 years or so.

Do you know what you want to put in? If you want to contribute to the capsule, but want time to find things, tell me and I’ll make sure it doesn’t close up without you!

[plans] Summer Activities

I have lots to do this summer, and I want you to join me. Here are some of my plans. Probably only half of these will actually happen– make them the half you want!

Seminars:

I want to organize a seminar for the summer. We’ll probably starting in July, and go until we’re done. My top choices are “The Coming Years: An Exploration of the Future” and “The Science of Social Interaction” from my December list, and the two below:

Apartment Technology Workshop: Lights, cameras, and action! Outfit your living spaces with things that buzz, flash, open doors, and feed your ferret on command. We’ll brainstorm intelligent mechanisms and wild household improvements to collaborate on, and choose as many projects as we have time for that will let us all take something home. No past EECS/Mech-E experience needed.

German Support Group: Learn German with us! Come struggle through the language from the ground up, using books, tapes, expert guests, and most of all, each other. As we expand our vocabulary and understanding of the grammar, we’ll take every opportunity to speak in our new tongue, as best we can.

Tell me if you want to do any of these!

Projects:

I’m working on a few things, and I’d love others to join me.

Departure Point Travelers Community: I’m building a business to help travelers share information, meet up, and potential fund their travels. In part, it’s a cross between LiveJournal and Friendster, offering free blogs for travelers, with maps that record their and their friends’ wanderings and let them learn about and review places to go. Foremost, I need a web graphic designer, but anyone with experience in business, web development, and travel could help!

Your Money or Your Life this July: Your Money or Your Life is a book that lays out a new approach to personal finance and ultimately a path to financial independence (never having to work again)… but it isn’t easy. Start this July, and we can do it together! Tell me if you want more information or to borrow the book.

Learning to Drive: I can’t drive, and I’m getting less proud of it by the year. Learn to drive with me! How’s this Thursday to mob the RMV for our learner’s permits? At the end of the summer, we can all celebrate our new licenses by getting plastered and racing around Boston.

Trips:

Camping Trip: I love camping, and there are lots of good places to go. I’m thinking mid-July, and there’s a park in Vermont I have my eyes on, with a beautiful lake and plenty of trails. The more the merrier!

I also plan to go to Pennsic (Aug. 5 – 12) and Burning Man (Aug. 27 – Sep. 3) this summer! If you want to come, talk to me.

And I believe there were plans to go to Quebec. This is a poke to those people!

Finally, I’m also a organizer-at-large. If you have something you want to do with other people, convince me that I want to do it too, and I can help you make it happen.

Doing My Part

East Cambridge is crawling with zombies! On the way back from preshow meeting, I barely avoided being eaten by climbing up an exhaust pipe. I waited there until I smelled them all pass. For a moment I thought I saw Mr. Wizard among the decaying bodies, but I lost him when he crouched down to pick up his left arm. They seem to be staggering toward the Stata Center, which they kept calling “the chothen land”. Across the street, the Brains Complex seems to be preparing its arsenal for the final stand. Fight hard, colleagues! Our fate rests in your Erlenmeyer flasks!

And protect yourselves: this video is said to provide some inoculation against the zombies… or at least, it leaves a bad taste in the mouths of any that try to eat you.
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=2010871890
Find out more, and spread the disease: http://community.livejournal.com/fullbodycast/111374.html

[update] Blackhole Reunion

A great weekend! Mali’s party was excellent as always!

Sunday was the long-awaited wedding of two wonderful friends from Blackhole, the social group I lived with at MIT. Chris and Meghan were always a social nexus of that group, and their wedding was a Blackhole reunion like I’ve never seen. It was so great to catch up with the people who made my MIT experience.

The wedding itself was beautiful. The day was perfect, and the brief ceremony was held outdoors. Each bridesmaid and groomsman wielded a rapier, and after the vows raised them to form a tunnel of swords for the newly joined couple to pass through.

More than anything, it was fun! The soundtrack was filled with video game music, and the speeches spotted with gaming and MIT references. It felt wonderful to unabashedly geek about grad school, or software architecture, or the circuit boards that were at the tables with a wedding dedication on one side and a programmable radio receiver on the other, or the meticulously crafted video game mascot at each table. We couldn’t stop laughing during the MIT affiliates picture, and even broke out in a spontaneous few verses from the MIT Drinking Song. The bouquet and garter tosses were packed, but not so packed or excited as the thesis toss, in which Chris threw his thesis title page, and it’s said that whoever catches it will be the next to graduate.

Later in the evening, the dance floor was dominated by MIT folk, and every dance become a game by the second verse. For me, the song of the night was Bon Jovi’s Livin’ on a Prayer. This is a special time for the greater Blackhole group, a few years out of college and finding our footing in the world, and growing into ourselves in fits and starts. We’re half way there. It doesn’t matter if we make it or not– we’ve got each other and that’s a lot. Take my hand and we’ll make it I swear.

[essay] Humanism and Manipulation

Here’s one that’s been on my desk too long: How does humanism judge modern manipulation and what role does manipulation have in a humanist ethics? Can humanism enlighten manipulation with ethical limits? Is humanism a sensible philosophy in a world of manipulation?

The humanist worldview is from a simpler time, before existential power games, mass media advertising, human system dynamics, cognitive science, and analysis. A basic tenant of humanism is rational self-creation. But naive self-creation is a myth, and a poisonous one. From soul to sole, we’re products of our culture, our peers, our privileges, and the deepest quirks of our individual complexes. There’s still a powerful role for a kind of free will, but not– for lack of a better term– Christian freedom.

Manipulation– the subverting of self-determinism– is a constant fact of modern life. It comes in two distinct forms. Micro manipulation– between two people– is the art of management, seduction, and psychology. Macro manipulation– moving a population– is the science of politics, business, and culture. In recent years, both branches have been honed to lettersharp points.

George Lakoff is a cognitive linguist whose Don’t Think of an Elephant brought to the left what Jerry Falwell did for the right. He showed that the battleground of politics is in authoring the public discourse. If people are arguing for or against tax relief and partial-birth abortion, the public mind will reach predictable conclusions; if they hear about clean sky bills and public protection attorneys, they’ll reach others.

Lakoff attacks the enlightenment myth that “the truth will set us free.” Humanism claims that “if we just tell people the facts, since people are basically rational beings, they’ll reach the right conclusions.” But facts alone are inert. People make decisions based on emotional appeal, conceptual framing, and social perceptions. Lakoff’s human is a thermometer in a soup of cultural memes.

Our mechanism for choosing between conflicting truths transcends reason. Reason only works within the context of a consistent frame of meaning. Since every idea comes with its own frame, conflicting ideas can seem internal reasonable. Even our ability to choose a single frame for judging ideas is questionable: if you activate a frame enough in someone’s head by speaking from it, and it will naturally become their default frame.

Classical humanism excuses a piece of the human creature from its context. Humanism says that we are capable of creating in ourselves and the world a utopia of free actors. It’s not clear, however, that we want such a utopia, even if it’s possible. Manipulation is useful, and can be used for good as easily as for ill.

Certainly some manipulation is necessary and helpful for children, to keep them safe and nurture self-awareness. Plus, without being indoctrinated into a culture, the human animal cannot grow. The idealist humanist transcends culture, but culture is a necessary and irreversible step in that path.

In moderation, manipulation is a powerful tool in psychology and education. People get stuck in ruts, develop ill-founded conceptions of the world, and forget to use the full extent of their abilities. External intervention is caring.

The world is too full of facts and opinions and options that political and cultural expression is necessary, and all expression is manipulative. Without loud and repeated expositions on the situations in Darfur and Iraq, or of gay rights and art expositions, people forget.

Everything we say and do contains an unavoidable element of manipulation. Our privileged role as Sartrian Others infuses every action and inaction with meaning. Every relationship has an element of power struggle, each of us trying grapple others into acknowledging our existence as free-willed, indefinable beings.

The pervasiveness and necessity of manipulation demands that we use it consciously. The potential for hurting others by its unacknowledged use is enormous. Refusing to acknowledge manipulation is disavowing responsibility for it. Good people have a responsibility to develop their powers of manipulation, micro and macro.

But necessity is not a justification for unhindered use. There are ways to manipulate more and less, and more and less appropriate situations, approaches, and responses.

One possible principle is that manipulation must be used in the service of providing for free choice. For example, the purpose of education is to raise people who have the background and skills necessary to teach themselves. Manipulation in psychotherapy should be limited to making clients more capable of making choices in their lives.

Troublingly, this conception of manipulation is always as a means to an end, with the end being the only justification for the means. Moreover, it’s the particular Kantian evil of making another person into a means to one’s own ends. How much manipulation is allowable for how lofty of ends? And if 50’s era housewives delude themselves into being mostly happy, who’s to say their lack of choice is wrong?

Another solution is to respect a kind of anarchy, in honoring the right to refuse. If everyone can start life as independent and free and with 50 acres and a mule surrounded by high walls, any connections they choose to make are a consensual invitation to be manipulated. But that is a fantasy world. We are not free in that way, we cannot live independently from society, and there is no exit from our fellow human beings.

We need a new conception of humans and humanity for the modern world. Human choice is a medley of manipulation, and manipulation is a prerequisite to choice. Manipulation is not the Schopenhauer’s beastly exertion of power—it is amongst the highest and most noble arts of which humankind of capable.

Manipulation is a fundamental relation between people. The myth of the rugged individual disconnects our selves from our framing, the manipulative relations that constantly create us.

We need Martin Buber’s gestalt shift to the supremacy of the relationship. Buber says that there is no “I”, only sides of the “I-It” and “I-You” relations. To be the “I” in an “I-It” relation is to manipulate. For Buber’s, the “I-You” relation was one of passive appreciation, but that is exactly the attitude of openness to manipulation.

We have freedom and choice, but it is a free-will negotiated in concert with Others. The ethics of manipulation are reflected back on us immediately, because they define us. To manipulate another as a means to an end is to oneself become a means. To subvert another’s humanity—even in the service of helping the rise more powerfully from the ashes—is to become an accessory to that process.

Humanism holds that self-service is a natural good. Because of our rationality, our humanity, the fact of our social existence and the goodness inherent in free choice, the path to utopia is in our ability to improve our own situations. If ever more powerful modes of manipulation seem to sour self-service, the problem is not in manipulation, but in our selves.