{"id":270,"date":"2007-05-10T03:15:00","date_gmt":"2007-05-10T03:15:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/?p=270"},"modified":"2007-05-10T03:15:00","modified_gmt":"2007-05-10T03:15:00","slug":"read-between-my-lines-or-cognitive-disodence","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/?p=270","title":{"rendered":"Read Between My Lines, or Cognitive Disodence"},"content":{"rendered":"<ul><i>yes and how he kissed me under the Moorish wall and I thought well as well him as another and then I asked him with my eyes to ask again yes<\/i><\/ul>\n<p>I want try going by Jim.  I love the name Jimmy; it laughs at itself.  But it crosses a line of social convention that I&#8217;m always struggling with: we are shaped, both in other people&#8217;s eyes and our own, by the labels we use.  That nickname is a bit of playful eccentricity I use for myself, but it paints me in a childish hue.  Anyhow, I want to bow to convention and see if it hurts my back or, as is possible, makes it stronger.<\/p>\n<p>It\u2019s an experiment in some shifting thoughts I\u2019m working through.  I&#8217;m not going to write the core of those thoughts (mostly because I don\u2019t know what the core is), but here&#8217;s a snapshot of one facet.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m a creature of ambiguity.  If there&#8217;s a line somewhere, I&#8217;ll try my best to tightrope it.  One reflection of this is how I try to do everything at once&#8211; or rather, everything, in parallel.  My full todo list is about 400 items long, and fuzzily scheduled halfway through next year.  Every day I work on a dozen independent projects, fully expecting that I won&#8217;t finish most of them for years, if ever.  And I try to maintain several prospective romantic interests, even when that&#8217;s an obstacle in getting into any woman&#8217;s pants or heart.  It\u2019s helping me learn to flirt better and I&#8217;m getting to know so many incredible women.  I&#8217;m frustrated that it makes me talk big and act small, but it&#8217;s fun playing with those insecurities.<\/p>\n<p>And I love living this way; I wouldn&#8217;t want life to be any different.  But all these balancing acts make me awfully ineffective.  Which is another piece I&#8217;m okay with&#8230; mostly.  All together, I take it too far.  I had a great idea for a music creator the other day&#8211; it could revolutionize electronic music, but I&#8217;ll never have time to work on it.<\/p>\n<p>I need a sidekick.  Not the little electronic ones&#8211;  I need a person to tag along with me like the guy who follows Cramer around and records all his projects.  There we&#8217;d be at the south pole, and he&#8217;d say, &#8220;Holy samosas, Jimmy! It would take a miracle to stop this iceshelf from caving into the ocean.&#8221;  &#8220;Wait Robin,&#8221; I&#8217;d say dramatically, &#8220;I have an idea&#8211; get me a keyboard and a bit of straw.&#8221;  Now hiring.  Compensation based on experience.  And you get to help me build a bat cave.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>yes and how he kissed me under the Moorish wall and I thought well as well him as another and then I asked him with my eyes to ask again yes I want try going by Jim. I love the name Jimmy; it laughs at itself. But it crosses a line of social convention that &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/?p=270\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Read Between My Lines, or Cognitive Disodence<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-270","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/270","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=270"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/270\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=270"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=270"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=270"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}