{"id":258,"date":"2007-03-26T01:09:00","date_gmt":"2007-03-26T01:09:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/?p=258"},"modified":"2007-03-26T01:09:00","modified_gmt":"2007-03-26T01:09:00","slug":"muse-a-certain-disposition","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/?p=258","title":{"rendered":"[muse] A Certain Disposition"},"content":{"rendered":"

Weekend: <\/a> Salon-Party a fabulous success (*pirouette*); eclectic group, fluidly bubbling with conversation groups on everything. <\/a> Great time at Black Rose Ball; I *love* dance and meeting women. <\/a> Huge snow-storm audience at the Rocky show; I was delirious except for when padfootwhore<\/a> was being mean to me (no matter– I spewed Acid on her later).<\/p>\n

I write this slathered in salt grains. I feel a flare for demonstracity, and I’m playing with it.<\/i><\/p>\n

Someone recently quoted, “Only people of a certain disposition are frightened of being alone for the rest of their lives at the age of 26.” For me, more than resigned to the possibility, I want to embrace it. Not because good women are difficult to find. I go on dates sometimes, but my life isn’t the kind of thing that most people would be interested in joining in on.<\/p>\n

I intend to live hard. And not in a nice way– my life will leave my mind twisted, my soul tortured, and my body wasted. I’ll live poor and over-worked. I won’t settle in anywhere. I’ll only get weirder with age. I’ll always be obsessed with projects that only a mother could love, and my relationship will never be the most important thing in my life.<\/p>\n

I mentioned this to my philosophical father. He suggested that swallow-the-keys commitment might have more for me than I was considering. Life with another person forces one to confront one’s flaws. And I want that, but I hope friends can give it to me (that’s where you come in).<\/p>\n

I’m very comfortable with my flaws, or my rate of progress in working on them. They rarely bother me, but I know some of them bother other people. And the flaws that affect other people don’t directly affect me, so it’s easy for me to just not notice them.<\/p>\n

So my question to anyone who thinks they have any part of an answer: What are my worst flaws?<\/p>\n

Any answer would be doing me an honor, so don’t worry about protecting my ego or mis-flawing me. You won’t hurt me, and I want to know however my flaws appear, and I’ll worry about whether they are at-bottom how they manifested themselves to you. Give as much detail as possible (and specific grievances, if you remember them). Thank you!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Weekend: Salon-Party a fabulous success (*pirouette*); eclectic group, fluidly bubbling with conversation groups on everything. Great time at Black Rose Ball; I *love* dance and meeting women. Huge snow-storm audience at the Rocky show; I was delirious except for when padfootwhore was being mean to me (no matter– I spewed Acid on her later). I … Continue reading [muse] A Certain Disposition<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-258","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/258","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=258"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/258\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=258"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=258"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jamesrising.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=258"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}